Friday, April 25, 2014

This Doesn't Count as BSBP

This past month, or maybe a little more than a month, our lives have been turned upside down and over again, and then some. I've tried to pretend that we are ok here, and that there isn't any need to panic... but.... PANIC!!!
Events happen that you don't plan for, even if you plan, they are not always going to go the way you planned. Like death.
Like illness...plumbing, wiring, dishwashers...
Like old age...
We have had a series of events in the family, and in friends and well, just the day to day  running of our lives that make me stop and scratch my head and say ... what next.  You know my Father-in-Law passed away, well, that seemed like the beginning, well, nope, it was after several other events.. but that was one of the toughest events in recent history. Then we had illness, trips, more illness, my Mother, and more illness, and well... the bumps in the road just seem to keep coming.
I have neglected most of my work, hoping for a break in the action, but it seems that I just don't catch a break.
I suppose everyone knows that I don't put a lot of planning into my work anyway. I pretty much work on a whim. I figure out as I go, and I don't do much more than a sketch of what I want something to be when it is finished... and usually it doesn't even turn out to be what I sketched... and sometimes I sketch out really detailed-down-to-the-bead and seem to not ever be able to finish those. I'll put them away and just never finish them, because I feel constrained to not change the thing. I feel like I can't go outside the box so to speak.
Heaven help me though if I don't write something down... like an idea, a way to work out a problem, or that solution to a tricky math problem that just pops into my head... because if I have to stop and do something else and come back to a project... I have probably already forgotten what I was doing.
I do that all the time.
I was working on a cloak for a lady when my Father-in-Law passed away, then I had a trip, then illness, and by the time I had a day to work on it, I had forgotten how to insert the pockets and leave an opening a well on a reversible cloak... I know how to do that. No... come to think of it, how do you do that?
The same with my jewelry, if I have an idea.. .I can pull the beads and findings, attach a little note and will probably remember what the concept is.  If I don't sketch it down and kind of show myself what I was thnking of, I will never get around to working on the project.
I have some beads that have set on a shelf for a few years now, because I can't remember what I bought them for. But then again... isn't that restraining to me, to keep them thinking that I will eventually know what I bought them for in the first place? Shouldn't I just use them and get it over with? Yeah, I probably should. I just leave them though... thinking it will pop into my head like that math problem.
So just to be fair, I took some beads off the shelf and made myself use them. I have had these for a while now and I can't believe that I am using them  for a project that isn't what I had planned on... And to be fair, I wouldn't have except that I wanted to use some of my BSBP beads... I thought they would be pretty with some green... and they are.
This is not a project for the BSBP.... but maybe it is? I am after all using some of the pearls from the stash that Skylar Bre'z sent. I love them and will have enough for a few more projects. I used them sparingly. That's why I say this isn't really the BSBP project... I just felt good today and thought to keep myself busy and somewhat out of trouble... I'd make myself a necklace and matching bracelet. I can't physically do much right now, and I'm having another bout of problems with my eye. Sooo....


I haven't yet gotten back to the cloak, My mind has been on it, and I figured out how to finish it, and I wrote it down and sketched it out so I can't forget! ... but just haven't been physically able to be up and do the work. Probably will have my Mom again this weekend and it seems to wear me out worse and worse every visit. She isn't that big a problem, but it is like having another kid in the house. I feel like I can't just sit and work and ignore her. She has to have her medications and needs help to get dressed and I still keep an eye on her if she needs to go to the bathroom. I am always afraid that she will trip over the dog, the rug, the threshold, the bathroom rug... sigh...
I guess I worry too much.
I am hoping to be able to get back to work in earnest the first of next week, and to finish up my BSBP pieces. I have several in the works, and yes, I will use the rest of the pearls on one of the pieces and if there is time... will make a matching pair of earrings and maybe a bracelet with the leftovers...