Friday, June 21, 2013

Eyes

I reread my last blog post, and I changed the name from Sewing to.... Me Complaining. I realized that I complained through the whole of the post. About the school cafeteria to my eyes, to the allergies, and everything in between. Sorry....
I have a partial diagnosis to my eyes, and I am on a new medication to help that specific problem, and I don't know if it will help or not, but... we are trying this out, to see if we can do something more to help this specific problem. Then we will work on the next part, and hopefully will see (ha, no pun intended) what can be done to help the right eye. I am all for shots in it, but, I don't have a good insurance policy that would cover any experimental drugs, and I am not able to work right now.

The weather is beautiful here, we have had rain, or what I consider rain, off and on the past week, not any accumulation, but it has been cooler. Last year it was scorching hot, now, I know it is only the beginning of Summer... but it is beautiful!!! The kids have been able to play outside and I have been sitting outside in the morning and evening, for as long as I can. I have this crazy urge to go camping! I am craving something, anything, cooked over an open fire. I miss camping a lot, and my son is really wanting to go off into the wilderness and camp, so, first thing we are going to do when I can see a little, is to go camping, off in the wilderness, away from civilization completely, rough it for a week (or as long as I can stand it!).

My son had a birthday this week, we didn't celebrate or make a fuss, he's having his party on Saturday. I did make a little fuss, I made him Pork Chops, couscous with pine nuts and peas, stuffed jalepanos, and salad, I didn't make a cake, his sister had sent him an edible bouquet for his birthday and that is what we had for dessert.  He's going to have a few of his family and buddies out to ride go carts and have cake this weekend. He got part of his gifts already, water guns, not the little water pistols that I used to play with... these are the super-duper, even take batteries, kind of big guns that he is so tickled about.  And he got poppers, those irritating little things that you throw at the ground and they pop... leaving tiny gravel all over the place... I go barefoot a lot!  The boys favorite thing to do with those things is to stick a pile of them under the mat in front of the door and wait for someone to step on it... such a boy.

I signed up for the  Bead Hoarder's Blog Hop, that Lori Anderson has put together. I am really excited about doing some work. It won't be intricate, but there are so many possibilities for what to make. There is a whole drawer in the workroom to pick from for this hop. You simply go through your stash, and pick out something that you have had put back, waiting for the right accents, or inspiration, or just time.... and use it to create a piece. The reveal is July 20th and I can 't wait to see all the creations. That is the best part of the hop to me, the reveal... there are so many wonderful designers out there, and it is so nice to see what they have come up with. The last blog hop was wonderful, it was the 7th Bead Soup Blog Party and it was filled with talented people with extraordinary creations. If you have a bit to go to the link on Pretty Things Blog do so and check out some of the designers. It is well worth the look, and you can't just stop at one or two, you get caught up in the list and sit for hours looking at the spectacular talent.

Alas, there is so much that I would like to write now, but my eyes are more than blurry. Time for drops and rest.


Sunday, June 09, 2013

Me complaining

I was on Facebook earlier and saw this link, or the link that took me to a list of links with this one on it... and I thought. wow! haven't used this stuff in years. fabric laminate used to be my favorite! I made baby bibs, chair cushions for our patio, pillows for all the outdoor chairs, bags, lunch sacks, all sorts of stuff!  Then one day, I went to get another roll of it, and it was no more. I don't know whatever happened to the stuff, but when I saw this blog on Sewing Secrets- a blog by coats and clark, I nearly jumped for joy! I know it is old, but if it was around in '10 it has to be around now!  So, I think in honor of summer, I am going to make some pillows for the Adirondack  chairs, which are so uncomfortable to sit in now that I'm old! I remember sleeping in the ones we had when I was a little girl... I don't know what happened, but I grew and the chairs got smaller.... not so comfy and cozy anymore, sooo.... I looked the product up and found it at JoAnn's which is wicked since we just got a JoAnn's in town, but sad to say it is one of those products that is online only...JoAnn's , why do you mock me?.........................argh.................................

OK, it is the first weekend of official Summer here, not really Summer yet, since the solstice is on the 20th, but the official none-the-less with school out, graduation last night, and we are able to sleep in--official start of Summer!!!! All is bright and hot in the world!.... We made it through another school year, without me being sent to jail for my son's sick days, or for me yelling and threatening the staff, or making a public nuisance of myself. I call that a good year!  Fang took his lunch the last month or so of school, which helped me tremendously, and I am going to say why... the whole of the cafeteria at the school is most likely (only put in most likely as a disclaimer that I will not be sued for libel or slander) are a bunch of gansters or highway robbers, Mob, or hoods ... I took money and had it put into my son's account, he told me after school that his account didn't have any money in it, and this isn't the first time. It has happened over and over again.

 I am furious still, we had such a hard time with that stupid cafeteria. I have funded someone's vacations or new cars, or at the least someone's kids lunches. I don't know if it is a mistake, or if it is incompetence, or if it is a glitch.... or if it is corruption, but I'm not the only one that has had trouble with this place. It is a disgrace when kids get nothing but a plain sandwich because they don't have money in their account, and it is a disgrace when they get the bread and meat and water when their parents work hard and make sure the kids have money in the account, just to find it isn't there. So... I am protesting again, and he won't eat in the cafeteria again for the next year. I think I will offer to make all his classmates lunches if they will boycott it as well. I could do pizza, chicken, spaghetti, hamburgers at half the cost for their lunches and make them more nutritious and healthy and have less waste. They buy all frozen foods and tout that they don't fry anything, but don't explain that their fry has as much saturated fat or more than the regular fried potatoes... Yes, I am that mad.

The ladies in the office tell me that I have to complain to the ladies in the lunch room... which is a waste of time, I complained and they told me that my son was probably getting second helpings... which I know isn't true. I ate lunch with him and saw what he ate, and I know for sure on that day, that he had one lunch, no dessert, and one drink and they told me he had charged two lunches. It isn't rocket science people! If a parent comes in with x amount of $ then put it on the account, take away the amount each day... and at the end of the year, either roll over the amount left over, or give the opportunity to donate the leftover money to students that are less fortunate... and that would be great! We've never had a balance, even though my son takes extra money every day and they won't allow change to be given back.. so he should in theory have a little extra in his account... I have only missed one day sending money all year. ........sigh............. I am now in the lunch business, anyone is free to call me up and order!

I am supposed to teach this summer, classes and camps and all, I still don't know what is going to happen, my sight is getting worse by the day, and I don't know what will happen, it is so bad that I can't see the screen right now, more than a blur of white and black with the little bits of orange and blue on the sides. I know what they are, but I can't for the life of me figure out what they say. I will have my son hit publish for me, I am sure it is hte rectangular orange blob on the right top of this page, but not really. I do ok for a ffew minutes and then it is so blurry that I can't make out much. It is to the point of being frustrating and just a tad bit scary. I am giving up driving for the time being, since the sun hurts my eyes even with pretty strong sunglasses, and I just am afraid that I won't see something.  Soooo, I plan on sewing and metal work and things that don't take too much vision, and can be done with handy-dandy magnifying glasses or I can sit for a while and then walk away from.... that is the best thing I can think of right now. Doing something that I like but that isn't too taxing.

 Other than my eyes, it has been kind of difficult lately, my knees and feet are giving me a tough time, but it is bearable, and I thank God evey day that my hands aren't hurting like they used to, and my back, chest and armpit are much better, the pain and swelling and lumps are nearly gone away, Yipee!!!!  My diet and lifestyle change is helping more and more, it is really hard, especially when I have had to take so many of the things I love, or at least, away. In the past 12 years I have found  out that I have severe allergies or sensitivities to eggs, peanuts, tomatoes, mushrooms, molds, grapes, strawberries, melons, amaranthus, and  a host of trees, grasses, and have triggers for asthma such as caliche dust and cigarette smoke..... sigh, and I can't tolerate gluten.

Before I had my son, I felt horrible all the time, I hurt all over, was sick almost constantly with sore throats and strep infections, had matted eyes all the time, had headaches, migraines, hives off and on, bloating constantly and seriously had issues with depression and anxieties. I was taking allergy shots, steroid shots, daily asthma and allergy meds, AND using over the counter allergy meds and decongestants to keep the allergies at bay, never knowing if something was going to send me over the edge into a full blown case of hives (like fumes from inks or one bite of something). I was in overload constantly. Since I have restricted these and a few others, I have found that I feel so much better, Now?  I haven't had allergy shots and only steroids once for a really bad kidney infection, and... no asthma meds and only the occasional decongestant for seasonal allergies (usually brought on by dust storms in the Spring).  It is amazing that before I never knew what was making me feel so bad, I never quite knew what was going to make me feel bad, now, I can immediately tell if I eat something that it is making my mouth itch and swell, my tummy hurt, or give me hives. Before, my mouth was so raw that I never really tasted food, oh, I loved pizza or strawberry shortcake, but, now, if I eat something, I can taste it, really taste it, not just the smell or the texture, which is what it was before. I smell something and it makes me hungry, but the taste usually doesn't register. Odd... but now, I feel so much better, and my mouth can taste the different herbs, the delicate flavors, and I am so amazed.
I think that the caffeine is the hardest thing to get rid of, and the scare with the lumps in my breast and armpits were enough to decide that caffeine is out for good.... but... there again, it is so tempting to have a cup of black tea. It is my favorite thing in the morning to have a nice cup of tea and maybe a piece of toast, and sit and watch the world come alive...

 I have tried herbal teas, and my sister-in-law, Grace, gave me a large box of Jasmine tea (I love it!) but sometimes, I want breakfast tea. You know, that dark, delicious, stuff with a tiny bit of natural cane sugar and a bunch of fake creamer in it... But, since I have substituted herbal, and I have given up Dr. Pepper, and Sweet Tea, I am so much better. The swelling has subsided and the pain associated with it, I can raise my arm above my head, which is a blessing that I can shave under my arm!!! But I won't lie, it is so hard to not eat with everyone. I can't go to the pizza place and just have a baked potato... I want a piece of pizza, and if everyone has soda, I want that DP or a Cherry Coke.... It is so hard to do this, but the alternative is so much worse.  Now,  if I could just stay completely away from caffeine and gluten.... but....all is better and I think I will live for a while yet. Too many projects still left undone, I can't die anytime soon!!!

I wish everyone a good Summer, and thanks for letting me ranrt and rave, I needed that!

Friday, June 07, 2013

Life after 5th Grade

The close of the school year, yipee! It's been a long one, with sickness, personal and family problems, we finally made it.  There is no end in sight to the problems we face, but summer seems to make everything better.
Fang, my son, (names have been changed to protect the innocent) made quite a show at the awards assembly. He wore his black suit jacket and a black tshirt with the bright green design, along with his khaki shorts... he was dashing. I called him, Bond, James Bond... there were so many people that stopped me and told me how handsome he was, then when we were leaving the classroom to go check out of school, one of the girls in his class nearly knocked people over (quite literally) to get to Fang. She hugged him and told him to have a good summer... he just smiled that little shy smile and went on. Echos back to Kindergarten when the twins would run up to him and hug him, and he would just look at them... never saying anything. I guess that's how these men are born. They are just too cool for words.

Fang has his summer planned out pretty well. He has the Duke TIP program to work on and he is supposed to help me with my summer camp classes, and he has his birthday coming up shortly... which is always time consuming for the week before. This year it is Fun City, with go carts and put put golfing... He is excited to do the go carts. Suddenly it is time for him to learn how to drive... I know, I didn't start until I was 12, but my daughter started at 8 and I think  he needs to know now. He is much more careful at nearly 11 than my daughter was at 16... or 25... haha, ok, so , we're going to go out to one of the caliche roads and practice. I'll give updates if I survive...

First day out of school and it came a thunderstorm at about 6 am. I got up and closed windows, unplugged electronics and made a cup of tea. The storm passed quickly, rolling across the Basin with rumbles and fantastic lightening. I'm not sure how much we officially got rainwise, but it was a good showing. One house to the West of us was struck by lightening and burned down, but with the rain we aren't in danger of it spreading. Always get nervous when fires are to the West of us. Back maybe 4 1/2 years ago a house  in the next block down from us caught on fire and spread to the next house, We all kind of got nervous. Only one way out of the cul du sac and it was blocked, wind was really strong, things were dry, but they realized that they were blocking us in... and moved their trucks. Fire spreads so easily when it is hot and dry, and when the wind is at 40mph or more it spreads even faster.

I went to the eye doctor last week... we walked in the office and it was dark, everyone was standing around talking, the power had just gone out. Don't know what happened, but I had to reschedule my appointment. I was really perturbed, that I drove all the way over to their office for nothing. Gasoline is a precious commodity and I was feeling so bad, on top of the fact that I shouldn't drive at all, but... things happen.  I am really ready to get this over with... or at least started. My sight is worse every day it seems. I have completely given up trying to bead. Even with larger beads and magnifying glass I am still having problems. With the computer as well. it seems harder and harder to see even with the page magnified.  My son has picked up on the fact that not only do I not hear (he will ask if I heard what the person talking to me said...) but that I can't see either, and will tell me if something doesn't look right. He is such a love.

We are off to such a lovely summer, cool and nice, I want to have a garage sale...